Thanks for visiting Life and Random Thinking today. – David
There is a saying that time heals wounds,
but I think some wounds never heal completely. They can still twinge a hot stab of pain that usually passes quickly to remind you that you are not quite whole, not the same you that you were before.
I know that is true for me,
Awhile back I was up early in the morning so that I could be first in line at the hospital to have my blood taken.
I have regular blood tests monthly to ensure my kidney transplant is doing well. The older nurse was friendly, and we were just chatting about Moms. Unexpectedly my eyes filled with tears. The nurse was kind and understanding, she gave me a hug, and I took a minute to collect myself before I left to go home. Those tears came from nowhere, but I am not ashamed.
My fruit trees get sprayed a few times a year,
I phone the company and I pay them over the phone, over the years the receptionist has become familiar and we chat awhile. This time I had no idea what set off my tears, but I was something she said had me thinking of Mom.She was always genuinely loving to me. She showed her care and kindness to me and others in many ways.
Today on June 6 there are tears also,
it’s been two years since my Mom, Lillian, passed 11 a.m. on June 6, 2018.
She would be overjoyed that I had my new kidney transplant last year.
She would be proud that I am trying to lose weight and be healthy.
She would be doing her painting, knitting and making her homemade cards for her friends.
She would be enjoying her hummingbirds and the garden in her back yard.
She would soak up every minute of our telephone calls as well as calls to her other family and many friends.
I do celebrate today my mom, Lillian, but I have some regrets I could have done more for her. I wish I had done more to show her what a great person she was, and what she meant to me. She never asked much, visits, a game of crib, a phone call or a card regularly was all she asked for.
If you want to know more about my Mom, click HERE
The lesson I have learned is
that I don’t have to have a heart attack before I learn a better appreciation of life and what’s important, I will do that NOW
that I don’t have to wait until someone is sick, or injured to tell them that their life is important to me, that I care about them, that I love them, that I think they are special, I will do that NOW
I’m not ashamed of tears;
The benefits of crying include:
- The release of endorphins
- Lowering of stress
- The releasing of toxins
- It is an emotional signal to other people we need more support
- Helps you to sleep better
- Its good for your skin
- Relieves certain types of headaches, ie. tension headaches
- Makes you realise you’ll be okay: the pain ebbs, and the endorphins fill your body.
Don’t shy away. Feel it all; even if you cry happy tears.